I have been exercising again the last few weeks. I just needed to not post about it for a bit.
I'm working on having the right attitude again for WHY I am exercising. I was so desperate to lose the baby weight (and quickly) that I become obsessive for the wrong reason and didn't exercise wisely (too much running too quick). Then, when I was nearly pre-preg weight, I became so frustrated with how my body is for different reasons (my tummy, my thighs, my everything are so much more jiggly than I 'd like!) that I didn't want to exercise at all because I thought I would never reach my pre-preg body again (which I liked).
However, after a hard few months (for many reasons), I am back to exercising again for mental health and back health and have been working hard on telling myself that I am doing this to feel better and NOT to look better (though I realize that will naturally come with the territory, it can't be my motivation!).
So, I'm running and doing pilates. I am focusing on building my bodies strength up again, and, honestly, I have much more energy to exercise now at 9 months postpartum than I did at 2, 3 and 4 months. It is nice to think (feel) like I can actually rebuild my pre-pregnancy strength now. Everything seemed so futile a few months ago.
All right. Sorry for the long post! (Okay, so I'm not, but well, there is no other expression in the English language I have found to express being 'sorry' without meaning that you're actually begging for forgiveness, if you know what I mean).